Abuse is NEVER OKAY!!

This is my first time talking heart to heart. For the last four years I loved and stuck by a man who I thought loved me. Well last night for the first time I realized he did not love or respect me. In all the years of my life I have never felt as bad as I did when I was with him. It was like he had two sides and it was hard enough. He would always use the excuse he was sorry but then do it again. For the longest time I thought it was just PTSD but then I realized it was not. He was just angry all the time. I found comfort in my friends who gave me really good advice but little did they know that I was being abused emotionally and mentally. Sometimes even physically. Sometimes I was smart because these ladies that I cared for so much did not need to hear about this stuff. My friend Tia told me to think about it all. I listened to the four ladies and I finally decided to try to work it all out. I already knew of his cheating which he played games and told me it was nothing. So I of course I tried to make it work. All the crap had fianlly taken a toll on me. Laast night was the last straw and I decided to leave this person for good. With a heavy heart I'd like to say he called me back and we worked it but saddly we did not.After all the years together and the hitting with I am sorrys. Making me feel like i did something wrong I finally left him. I was raised to be honest and taught that no kind of abuse is ever okay. After many years I decided I am starting over. And happy to say I'm done with all the crap....