Abuse is NEVER OKAY!!

This is my first time talking heart to heart. For the last four years I loved and stuck by a man who I thought loved me. Well last night for the first time I realized he did not love or respect me. In all the years of my life I have never felt as bad as I did when I was with him. It was like he had two sides and it was hard enough. He would always use the excuse he was sorry but then do it again. For the longest time I thought it was just PTSD but then I realized it was not. He was just angry all the time. I found comfort in my friends who gave me really good advice but little did they know that I was being abused emotionally and mentally. Sometimes even physically. Sometimes I was smart because these ladies that I cared for so much did not need to hear about this stuff. My friend Tia told me to think about it all. I listened to the four ladies and I finally decided to try to work it all out. I already knew of his cheating which he played games and told me it was nothing. So I of course I tried to make it work. All the crap had fianlly taken a toll on me. Laast night was the last straw and I decided to leave this person for good. With a heavy heart I'd like to say he called me back and we worked it but saddly we did not.After all the years together and the hitting with I am sorrys. Making me feel like i did something wrong I finally left him. I was raised to be honest and taught that no kind of abuse is ever okay. After many years I decided I am starting over. And happy to say I'm done with all the crap....

30 days Of AM

So I decided to re-do this and be open. Basically I don't care who reads this shit cause remember the Preamble and First Amendment.... And you can stick that in your pipe and smoke it! Here it is as in the constititiuon...

The First Admendment to the United States Constitution is part of the Bill of Rights. The amendment prohibits the making of any law "respecting an establishments of religion", impeding the freedom to excerise of religion, infringing  on the freedom of speech, infringing on the freedom of the press, interfering with the right of peacably or prohibiting the petioning for a government . redress of grievances. So therefore that means in lump some just deal with it......

Day 01- Introduce
Day 02- Your first love
Day 03- Your Parents
Day 04- What you ate today
Day 05- Your definition of Love day
Day 06- Your day
Day 07- Your best friend
day 08- A moment
Day 09- Your beliefs
Day 10- What you wore today
Day 11- Your siblings
Day 12- What's in your bag
Day 13- This week
Day 14- What you wore today
Day 15- Your dreams
Day 16- Your first kiss
Day 17- Your favorite memory
Day 18- Your fav. birthday
Day 19- Something you regret
Day 20- this month
Day 21-Another moment
Day 22- Something that upsets you
Day 23- Something that makes you feel better
Day 24- Something that makes you cry
day 25- A first
Day 26- your fears
Day 27- Your fav. place
Day 28- Something you miss
Day 29- your aspirations
Day 30- One last moment

I will blog about whatever I want

Okay last night I posted a blog about Mr. X and nobody ever really pays attention but apparently some person decided to cause some drama over this blogspot. So not only did I get Mr. X calling and screaming out to the point of no return I had to delete this blog....

First I believe our four fathers wrote a thing called the constitution. In this long ass document there is the first amendment stating Freedom Of Speech.. To this day people tend forget that everyone has the right to write about whatever they want as long as they do not participate in acts of treason or terrior. So many times I have been cautious with what I write but I AM SICK N TIRED OF IT!!  So therefore I do not care if some person reads something on my blog spot. If you have a problem complain to someone who cares about it. If I really cared about what you thought then I would delete everything offensive. I as a american citizen and a navy brat have the right to blog about whatever the hell I wanna blog about if it is love or hate.. Do you really care if I write about Joe Blow in timbucktwo who has issues or if i write about Mr. X and the navy!! WTF I seriously thought it was America and you could have the right to write whatever